Wednesday, March 30, 2011

How hard is it to be a military spouse?

Well, let me tell you. Right now, my husband, Rob is deployed and will be for the next year. This is his first deployment so you can guess that this is mine as well. Granted it's only been a week, but I hate not being able to see him everyday, talk to him in person or even have a daily conversation with him. Sucks, not having him in bed with me or even in the house. I feel alone and scared now that he is gone.

Yes I have friends here who come to check on me and ask how I am doing, and I tell them I am fine, but really I am not. It's just a front for my daughter. I have to be strong for her and not cry in front of her otherwise she will cry making it harder for me to stop. Kailyn is only five and knows that daddy has to go away for the Army and that it's for a very long time, but I don't think she knows how long that time is. I am gonna try to keep her as busy as I can to keep her mind off of things, but if she is anything like me, she is gonna have her moments and just start crying out of no where and realize that daddy is gone and not coming home at the end of the day.

This is just a tip on how hard it is being a military spouse, especially one with young children. I will continue more later, as I can not write anymore from my crying keeping me from seeing the screen.

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