It's getting a little better here at home not having Rob here. I still miss him like crazy and so does Kailyn. I think we have gotten closer to each other since he has left. She is always hugging me, kissing me and asking to help with stuff. She never did this with Rob here. She would hug and kiss me every now and then, but not like it is now. I am loving every minute of it. I am gonna take advantage of this while I have it.
I am also on the path to losing to weight. So far, I have lost 16lbs. I still have over 30 to go before one of my goals, but I am very proud of myself for losing those 16lbs. I am not eating as much and I am trying to work out every day. Today, I kind of slacked off and got lazy mostly because I got no sleep last night. IDK why, I just kept waking up every hour and then at 4 am a storm hit here hard and I was pretty much up from then on. So, I wait for Kailyn to get ready for school, take her to school, and then come back home and try to lay down. That didn't happen for a couple of hours because Rob skyped me, which I am not gonna tell him that I don't wanna talk to him because I'm trying to sleep.
So tomorrow right after I take Kailyn to school, I am going straight to the gym here at my apt complex and either doing the elliptical, treadmill or do some p90x. Not quite sure yet, I just know that I need to keep active and not get into my usual routine of being lazy. I am tired of being overweight and seeing my stomach be as big as it is. I am also tired of not feeling confidant in myself anymore. When I was in high school, I wasn't super skinny, but I was skinny enough that I felt confident in the clothes I wore and didn't feel a need to hide my body. Now, all I want to wear are jeans and t-shirts because I want to hide my body in these clothes. I have nice dress clothes, but the thing that sucks is they are from a plus size store and I never thought that I would be buying my clothes in plus size. I don't feel attractive enough. So I am going to change this, and work hard to reach my goal before the summer and then keep working to reach my ultimate goal.